What I had assumed to be a small and informal concert entertaining Circé and a few of her friends, I discovered later, and to my dismay, that she has invited a rather large assortment of Ar's upper crust nobility. And I am terrified.
Never in all my years have I stood on my own before such a large assembly, sans the accompaniment of the rest of the Musicians. Never before have I been in such a limelight. Thinking about it causes my belly to flip flop, as if there are small winged creatures fluttering to escape from inside of me.
I want to run away. Leave Ar. Never look back. And I have begged Asia several times to take me back home and to make it so that I do not have to appear before all these strangers. So far, she has said neither yes nor no, but has seemed to take pleasure in seeing me suffer my angst of turmoil.
I am not sure whether my Lady Kalika is as apprehensive as I am, or whether she suffers the same stage fright. So far, she has been entirely silent.
